Another year has come and gone in my life and I’m now called “a lady” and “grown up” by children — When in the world did that happen? All of my friends from back home have one, two and in some cases three kids already! My old entertainer friends are in the same boat I find myself, though — N.Y.R. — not yet ready. Although, if God plans otherwise, it will be graciously accepted. In the meantime, I embrace my N.Y.R. status because Husband and I are enjoying this time together. When the time comes, we both are in agreement that adoption is the way to go. That’s another blog for another time, but our hearts are certainly pulled that direction.
As I reflect on my life thus far, I’m incredibly thankful. There were moments along the way when I questioned why I was born or wound up having to experience so much heartache so early on — and I did experience a wave. But the older I get, the more thankful I continue to become. I’m thankful for all things and consider the pruning process a beautiful gift in my spiritual growth and maturity (John 15). It’s in the deepest of pits do we have the most opportunity to learn all the more about the attributes of God — I’m so grateful for those times and the things God showed me about Himself. While I don’t want to ever experience some moments again (no one does), it is inevitable that as long as we live and breathe, it’s a natural part of life. Through good times and bad, His Word has been my shield, my comfort and has brought me to my knees in conviction of those areas that need to change. Hebrews 4:12 says “For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart”. God speaks through His Word and for those who are believers in Christ, the Word of God is paramount to our growth and relationship with our Saviour. Christ isn’t just my Saviour, He is my Lord — and like David, I have hidden the Word in my heart (Psalm 119).
I’m the farthest thing from perfect — there is only One who has been and remains such, but the times I regret most are when I did not have a walking, active relationship with God and even questioned His creation of me. My life, your life, and every life is such a precious gift and on my birthday, July 7, I am not only celebrating my physical birth, but remembering my second birth — my spiritual birth — when I came to know, accept and then run the race with Christ (John 1:12, Phil. 3:12-16).
Thankful is a completely inadequate term to express the joy found in knowing He chose me, adopted me, called me and will carry on the work He began in me (Eph. 1). My only wish for this coming year is that I would fulfill the role I play in the Great Commission (Matt. 28:16-20). It’s not up to me whether or not another comes to accept Christ — it is between God and people whether or not a heart is turned and their lives are evidence of that change. It is up to me to be obedient and “GO” wherever, whenever He sees fit. We (Husband and I) are so excited to see what is in store for us next and eager to “get to gettin'”…on a very big side note, we love us some “Clean House” :).